“One should rather die than be betrayed. There is no deceit in death. It delivers precisely what it has promised. Betrayal, though ... betrayal is the willful slaughter of hope (American Playwright and Dramatist, b.1958)."
I've never relayed on anyone for anything. Never had a best friend, never wanted one, and never asked anyone for help. I would always think that if I let people get too close to me, in the end I would be the one to get hurt in some way. I was always by myself, but I liked it that way. I would see people with there so called "best friends" but I knew one day they would betray them.
My eighth grade year I got involved in student council with the high school I was going to. I was one of four people that started this student council; there were two boys, another girl and me. We spent a lot of our time together, and I started hanging out with the girl a lot more. Before I knew it we started doing things that I saw other best friends doing. I was having fun and I started letting people into my life a lot easier now.
I actually started to like having someone to talk to all the time and go out and do things with, so we now considered each other best friends. We used to do everything together from getting in trouble to achieving academic rewards. Though, I was still not used to having a best friend. I was still kind of sketchy about how long this would last because nothing good lasted with me. “What can we take on trust in this uncertain life? Happiness, greatness, pride - nothing is secure, nothing keeps (Euripides, Hecuba).”
She went to Afghanistan for the summer and we lost touch until she came back, but when she came back it wasn’t the same. She had this stuck up attitude and didn’t really act like my best friend, but we were still closer than other people.
Then her boyfriend started getting really jealous of how close we were and only wanted him and her to be close. So slowly I started seeing him come between us and she just let it happen. I didn’t really care because of course I knew it was going to happen. So I just started doing my own thing and she still couldn’t see that she let a guy she knew for four months get between her and her “best friend” that she knew a lot longer.
She would always ask me to hang out and I would just make up some excuse so that I wouldn’t have to put up with the drama. I didn’t mind losing my friend if she was just going to choose her boyfriend over me, but what made me mad is when she tried to turn everything around and blame it all on me. She was defending her boyfriend when he was the one that caused all this friction between us.
Although all these things were going on I still had her back and considered her my best friend. Well at least until her boyfriend pulled the last straw and she still defended him. After that I realized that I don’t even want to be her acquaintance. If he could say things so evil to me and her still say just forget about it is when I realized that she wasn’t a true best friend. To this day I think she still believes her boyfriend didn’t do anything wrong and wants me to act like nothing happened, and although people should forgive and forget things, this could never be one of those things. If my boyfriend had done that to her she would expect me to get rid of him right away, and before all of this I probably would have. So now I have just went back to my old ways not caring and not needing anyone. I guess I should have just stayed that way in the first place because betrayal is the worst thing to feel especially when it is from your so called “best friend”.
“One should rather die than be betrayed. There is no deceit in death. It delivers precisely what it has promised. Betrayal, though ... betrayal is the willful slaughter of hope (American Playwright and Dramatist, b.1958)."